My new house

As of late, my life has been quite interesting.  I find myself as the builder who didn't build his house on the rock.  The difference between he and I, is that I didn't wait for the flood to wash my house away.  Instead, I took a 12 gauge shotgun and blew it to hell!  My faith was built on a foundation of video games, and other mind sucking activities!  So here I am, rebuilding my house, starting with the foundation, and trying to build it right!  Now it's time to focus on the present rather than the past.  What is God doing now?  I think that question can all too often be pondered upon for such long periods of time,  that by the time we think we know, God's already doing something else.  I want to act, not ponder!  The Holy Spirit is always moving and doing things.  I don't want to be one of those people who stand and watch the Spirit move, all the while trying to determine the scriptural theology of the Spirit's movement.  Jesus did some really strange things, things that made people uncomfortable.  John 14:12 says, "I tell you the truth, anyone who has faith in me will do what I have been doing. He will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the Father."  What this scripture is telling me, and correct me if I'm wrong, is that through Christ I can do the things that he did, and even greater!  So I too, through Christ, might do really strange things that make people feel offended or uncomfortable! Why would I want to do that?  Because Jesus did!  Keep in mind, it wasn't Jesus' goal to make people feel uncomfortable.  He only did what his Father was doing.
     I want to be like Him, in every way.  I want ears like His, and eyes like His.  This actually scares me because, I'm one of those people who gets easily offended and uncomfortable around crazy Jesus freaks and strange manifestations!  I'm afraid of the very person I want to become... Does that even make any sense?  I'm gonna bury my face in scripture and devotion,  and keep my eyes and ears fixed on what the Spirit is doing.  And if I see or hear something, I'm not going to stop and think on it, I'm going to act,  and that scares the crap out of me. This is how I'm going to build my new house. I'm all yours Lord!