Significant Poop

I feel as though my brain is moving at 1000 miles per hour.  I have so much on my mind that it's actually hard for me to focus long enough to write something down.  Maybe I have H.S.A.D.D  (Holy Spirit Attention Deficit Disorder).  The Holy Spirit has been doing so much in my life right now, that I'm having a hard time focusing on anything else!  One thing I want to tell you about is, how I look at myself now.  I don't believe I am the only christian who looked at themselves as a useless sinner saved by grace. A tiny little insignificant poop in the middle of Gods ginormous universe.  Yes at one point in our lives we were useless sinners, but that all stopped when we were saved by His grace.  Once saved,  we then became saints, little lights on the hill, temples in which the Holy Spirit can dwell!  How can I label myself a useless sinner, when the old me is gone! DEAD!  This is good news.  And we are not insignificant either!  Matthew 5:13 & 14 tells us "We are the salt of the earth, and the light of the world".  Nice! And if we believe we are so insignificant then why would the creator of EVERYTHING send his one and only son Jesus to DIE FOR US?  John 3:16 Classic! 
    I believe far to many Christians feel this way about themselves, and this feeling is not biblical. There is nothing in the scriptures to back our feelings of insignificance.  To say to God "Why me?  I'm useless and insignificant!"  Discredits and dishonors everything! God sending his son, the teachings and miracles of Jesus, His death and resurrection... everything!  Why would Jesus set an example for us to live by, if it were a life we couldn't achieve?  He exampled it, because we can live like him!  When he came into our lives, we kissed poor little insignificant, useless poopy face, sinner person goodbye, and said hello to a new life in Christ. We are little, but we're not insignificant or useless. Not anymore!

2 timothy 1:8-10:
"So do not be ashamed to testify about our Lord, or ashamed of me his prisoner. But join with me in suffering for the gospel, by the power of God, who has saved us and called us to a holy life—not because of anything we have done but because of his own purpose and grace. This grace was given us in Christ Jesus before the beginning of time, but it has now been revealed through the appearing of our Savior, Christ Jesus, who has destroyed death and has brought life and immortality to light through the gospel."

My new house

As of late, my life has been quite interesting.  I find myself as the builder who didn't build his house on the rock.  The difference between he and I, is that I didn't wait for the flood to wash my house away.  Instead, I took a 12 gauge shotgun and blew it to hell!  My faith was built on a foundation of video games, and other mind sucking activities!  So here I am, rebuilding my house, starting with the foundation, and trying to build it right!  Now it's time to focus on the present rather than the past.  What is God doing now?  I think that question can all too often be pondered upon for such long periods of time,  that by the time we think we know, God's already doing something else.  I want to act, not ponder!  The Holy Spirit is always moving and doing things.  I don't want to be one of those people who stand and watch the Spirit move, all the while trying to determine the scriptural theology of the Spirit's movement.  Jesus did some really strange things, things that made people uncomfortable.  John 14:12 says, "I tell you the truth, anyone who has faith in me will do what I have been doing. He will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the Father."  What this scripture is telling me, and correct me if I'm wrong, is that through Christ I can do the things that he did, and even greater!  So I too, through Christ, might do really strange things that make people feel offended or uncomfortable! Why would I want to do that?  Because Jesus did!  Keep in mind, it wasn't Jesus' goal to make people feel uncomfortable.  He only did what his Father was doing.
     I want to be like Him, in every way.  I want ears like His, and eyes like His.  This actually scares me because, I'm one of those people who gets easily offended and uncomfortable around crazy Jesus freaks and strange manifestations!  I'm afraid of the very person I want to become... Does that even make any sense?  I'm gonna bury my face in scripture and devotion,  and keep my eyes and ears fixed on what the Spirit is doing.  And if I see or hear something, I'm not going to stop and think on it, I'm going to act,  and that scares the crap out of me. This is how I'm going to build my new house. I'm all yours Lord!